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[Feb. 27th, 2004|07:03 am] |
Yeah so Court today.Woke up at 12:30 had to be there at 1:30.Looked at my ticket and
Court Time:9:00 A.M. FUCCCCCCKKKKKKKK
So i go and now im short 205 dollars.But on a happier note.Got my notice in the mail today that i was accepted to be a correctional officer.Im so happy.Worked too fucking much this week.67 hours.Only one more night to work this week.Come on saturday.Going to go now for an hour nap so i can wake and get an oil change and get a cd player installed in my car.
Cant wait to see melissa this satuday.Been such a long week,Cant wait to see her sleep so beautiful. |
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[Feb. 25th, 2004|07:28 am] |
Damn man im falling so hard for this chick.I dont want to tell her anf fuck things up.See i found out the other night why she only dates women supposedly and its because she lost her virginity to a guy that raped her =(
See,me and her dated before that happened to her and i got told by her and another girl,kim in the same night that i was the best b/f they ever had.And thats right fellas.Im the best b/f and lover.I want to make her happy but god i dont wanna tell her,ok deep breath.Im gonna take it slow.
jonJon is very Happy Happy
"In the Valley of the Damned" |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|03:49 pm] |
Well I work for Shell Now and i just switched to nights.So hard to adjust to.I love being awake at night,but working from 6pm to 6am is fucking weird lol.Its ok though.72 hours a week,32 hours at 12 bucks an hour.I can handle it.I so have to get my bills in order.I fucked up my credit so bad since i first moved out at 18.
I owe $500 to an energy company
$500 to cingular cell phones.
$197 to wells fargo bank.
$900 for a broken lease.
gah!
And i have court thursday.I hope that fucking cop doesnt show.Well im off to get ready for work. |
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[Feb. 20th, 2004|11:41 pm] |
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So lemme tell you a story.
In HighSchool i met this girl melissa.This was shit 5-6 years ago?We instantly hit it off.I loved her but she was like a sister to me.
Then her parents put her in a Military type boot camp school thing and we lost touch.She then moved to Conroe and i didnt see her Until last year.I missed her so much throughout the years due to our complete loss of contact.We became friends again but it wasnt the same.I just didnt have the emotion or time to spend building a friendship again that was lost so long ago even though i still loved her.So then we lost contact again.
Tonight i get home from work and she called me.So i called her back and we talked for a bit about how lonely we both were and this and that.So i asked her to see me tomorrow cause she just ended a relationship and shes staying at her grandmas.So i asked her if she'd spend the night with me tomorrow.She agreed to it.Ive never slept next to her before or even spent the night with her.I sound like such a fucking kid lol.Im kinda nervous.I mean i can remember in highschool when we planned to get married.Im so excited but again so nervous.
The job im working now is 6 days a week 12 hour days and im too busy to start a commitment.Plus hopefully im leaving in a few weeks if i get the prison guard job.Gaaaaahhhhhh im so confused.Suggestions anyone? |
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[Feb. 16th, 2004|06:51 pm] |
GAh.I just feel like venting no
Is there not one single person who lives in Houston that respects the same music as me?I mean come on now.Its hard to fucking believe.I need new fucking friends.I will never truly be happy for music is my life and i couldnt see myself with someone not as musically enclined as i.Closed Minded?Probably.I look and look and look and look and i have not found one person.Except the occasional "person" who is such a poser its ridiculous.I fucking hate this stupid ass city.
And why the fuck do i cry everytime i see "A Beautiful Mind" that move is so amazing.Thats true love for you folks.devoting your whole life to someone through thick and thin,Through blood and through water.
And how about that movie:
Four Dogs Playing Poker?
That is one fucking awesome movie concept and plot. |
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| My Lost Lenore |
[Feb. 16th, 2004|06:48 pm] |
I want to be in Love.Love is the greatest emotion in the world.I want to give someone my all and my world.
I want to wake up to that person everyday and they be the last view i see when i close my eyes at night.
I want to have puppy dogs and go grocery shopping.
aggh.Fuck it. |
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[Feb. 16th, 2004|09:32 am] |
Im so ready to go to England and Holland this summer.Im so tired of burning cd's. i must have burned like 100 over the last 2 days.I just wanna go into a record store and have a choice.I still cant find Haggard's "Awakening the Gods" DVD,bastards.Im starting to discover alot more power metal now.Dragonforce in particular is great.The new Vintersorg album "Focusing the Blur" was released today.awesome album.Dargaards new album "Rise and fall" is released march 23rd.Haggards new album will also be released in April.
P.S. Halo 2 delayed to September.MOTHER FUCKERS |
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[Feb. 15th, 2004|09:33 pm] |
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Id like everyone if they could to say a lil prayer or something for my friends family.A friend of mines cousin died a few days ago.her funeral is tomorrow.She was only 13 and died of terminal cancer.Id appreciate it.I hate when children and teenagers are taken from us so soon without them having a chance at life.Thankyou. |
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| Happy V-day |
[Feb. 14th, 2004|11:38 am] |
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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE |
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[Feb. 13th, 2004|05:06 pm] |
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im in a real goofy mood right now.God my ex-thing is such a slut roflmao. |
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[Feb. 12th, 2004|09:54 am] |
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Well so i went to Huntsville Tuesday.Stayed for 9 hours,took test after test,Finger prints,paperwork,interviews.I GOT THE JOB.Finally my life is turning around.I leave March 4th.I go to Huntsville for 6 weeks for training.Then i have to work in Huntsville for 6 months before i can transfer to Dayton.Ill be making 17 dollars an hour.$1716 a month for first month.then it goes up to $1870 a month after 2 months.Im so happy.I will finally get to get my Beautiful Volkswagon Golf GTI (orgasm) Oh man there was this red-headed hottie in my class who will be training with me.So fucking hot.Sleeves of Tattoos and red hair.FIESTY!I know none of u care but i cant tell my friends i got the job so im venting on here.I get to use Semi automaic rifles,Shotguns and pistols.Plus its like 2 miles from S.H.S.U. go Bearkats.Maybe i can start university now in august.Peace Fuckers |
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[Feb. 9th, 2004|11:18 am] |
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And BTW All Child Molestors and Kidnappers,Child Murderers need to be fucking Hung in A designated Fucking TownSquare and let me fucking go at them. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2004|11:13 am] |
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Oh and if anyone in Houston reads this and wants to get spanked at Halo lemme know.We need some fuckers to play vs.You cant touch this skill. |
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[Feb. 9th, 2004|10:51 am] |
My My what a weekend.Friday night My roomie went to go have sex so i was home watching the Simpsons when i was like "Why dont i call Erika."Shes the 35 year old ive been talking to recently.So she came over.My resolution for the new year was to have Sex with an African American woman.Well shes yellowbone so close enough.So she came over and i taught her how to play Halo.She proceeded to seduce me and My buddy Steve showed up so she ran to the bathroom.So he left and we continued.We fucked and it was badass.She was so fucking kinky it was great.So we fucked.She left and Edward came home,he got laid so we shared stories and he crashed.Saturday he worked so Ricky came over and Steve,we got some beer and got ready for the House Warming thingie.We Set up the 3 x-Boxes and Tvs and got our teams and Beer and started.Badass is all i can say.best Halo games ever.Me and Edward and D.V. all covering each other with sniper rifles(Orgasmic).They couldnt touch us.So everyone left around 3 except ricky.Me and him played Need for Speed on X-Box and its so fucking hard now.I have my Ford Focus Hatchback all Suped up and i cant win cause were so close to beating it.So then sunday came.Just kinda relaxed.Me and edward didnt wake till 2.Went to CiCi's with Steve and came back and Watched Fox and Played Rainbow Six.Josh is coming home from Florida for the Weekend.(YAAAAAAAAH).Oh and im so happy.Tomorrow i get to wake up at 4 am and my dads taking me to Huntsville to go Test to be a Prison Guard.Awesome!I get to live in Huntsville for 6 weeks for Training then pick which prison i wanna work at.I wouldnt mind working In Huntsville.(Orgasm)Ok im done now.Take care Everyone.
Oh and Steve: Fucking a black chick is awesome! |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2004|09:39 am] |
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Well finally were all moved in.I got a one bedroom and was sleeping all alone in the living room for a few days with a whole empty bedroom so i decided to ask one of my best friends to move in with me.He took the bedroom and im staying in the living room.Ive never really had my own room,wouldnt know what to do with one.Im comfortable staying in the living room.I have no intention of inviting any female counterparts over so i dont need the privacy.We finally got all his shit moved in yesterday.It was a bitch.My apartment has that whole "New York" style feeling to it where you have to go through a door and up a stairwell before you get to your apartment.The couch and beds and dressers were the worst part.Me and my buddy used to live together anyway we enjoy decorating the walls.Our whole unity aspect of my Rei Ayanami and nightwish scrolls and his Doors and Jim Morisson Scrolls.We got the surround sound hooked up and all we have to do is finish decorating today.No phone yet,but well get one soon.Its gonna be fun.I was never more happy than when i used to live alone or with roomies.Im looking forward to a big change.Going to England and Holland this summer.I did delete my journal but now i undeleted it.I dont care anymore about the fighting or the Ex.But if someone is still going to talk shit im not going to back down.So whatever.People can think what they want to think about me.I have my close friends,all i need and my place now.Fuck everyone else who wants to talk shit on a computer and cant back it up.My ex will luckily never be mentioned in this journal again.And fuck i have court on the 10th for running a red light,Grrrrrr |
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[Jan. 30th, 2004|01:36 pm] |
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Well Im sorry for all the stupid arguments this has caused.Sounds like were doing a Political Debate for President Status or something.maybe my luck will change after today.Just got back from signing a lease for my new apartment.700 square feet.Pretty decent.Finally will have a place to hang my Wall scrolls and Nightwish banners up.Just wanted to say i wont be around very often now.Well atleast for a few weeks till i get a pc for my place.Finally we dont have to worry where we are playing Halo anymore.Superbowl party?Be ready fuckers.Halo parties?Killtacular time baby.Good luck everyone.Talk to you soon. |
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| Nightwish |
[Jan. 30th, 2004|12:29 am] |
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| | For My Pain - Dear CarniWhore | ] |
Nightwish & Lullacry(Unofficial)
August 30th: Phoenix Arizona.
Fucking awesome.
More complete U.S. tour in 2005
New Sirenia : An Elixir for Existence
in stores: February 23rd.Fucking about time.
New Haggard album also being released sometime in February-March.
New Dargaard Album also early 2004.
what an awesome year to be.Fucking A.
But back to nightwish.Will be Flying to El Paso,and driving to Phoenix.My buddy Ladreik who is moving to Arizona this Summer from Germany is also going and is offering for me to stay at his and his gf Lana's place.Fucking awesome.cant wait.
Still cant wait to see Haggard,Only German Dates are up.Come back to Mexico.
"Feed the Spark,
Welcome to the Land of Dark,
Death in All the Centuries is What i Left Behind."
"Take my Hand Forgotten in the Promised Land,
Death In All the Centuries Is What i Left Behind." |
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[Jan. 29th, 2004|10:20 am] |
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God im a mess.I cant stop crying.I wish i was strong enough to kill myself.What the fuck.I wish i was stronger.I will i wasnt such a mistake and such a loser.I wish i was loved.I wish i made something of my life.I wish i could have Amy back for just one second.I wish i was back in England.I wish i was 4 years old again witnessing my brother and sister being born.I wish i had applied myself in HighSchool.I wish i wasnt so fucked up.I wish i wasnt here anymore.i wish it was November 24th 2001 again.I wish i could start over.I wish i was born a koala bear.I wish someone loved me.I wish.......I wish |
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[Jan. 29th, 2004|10:17 am] |
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Im just wondering,Has anyone ever been Diagnosed and Treated for Depression or Anxiety attacks?No matter what i do or who im with,all i want to do is sleep.I dont eat all i do is sleep.Fuck,i Need HELP |
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